SOOOOOOO…….

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings.... on October 9, 2015 by iammaninthemiddle

I find out this week that the person I am absolutely smitten with (and have been for a while if you read this blog at all) has been keeping the same secret that I have.  I will not reveal the secret, but its very interesting to say the least.

Oh quit your bitchen, its our secret and its a secret…  right?!?!?!

I needed to get rid of some baggage from the past and went walk about…  after feeling that it wasn’t going to work.  I still feel that way to an extent. But I have hope now as the cat is out of the bag so to speak. I can’t read very well whether or not this will have a bearing on anything…  I can hope i guess.

On the flip side its mitigating and serious circumstances that have brought us (somewhat) back together in a friendly way. This believe it or not is more important then the secret.  That’s just icing on the cake. I wish that different events brought us back to speaking, but I will take it and hopefully help deal with these issues.

Ok…

As usual when I write here, I have been drinking. Something I haven’t done in a long while. Feeling quite numb at the moment, but good. I wish she were here so I could just hold her. I always loved that.

 

Enough mushy shit.

 

I’m out with the boys, to get my drink on.  A few more Car Bombs on top of a few pints and I’m good…  HA HA!

 

Peace love and chicken grease!

MIM

 

 

Now were talking!!!

Posted in Pissed Off, Ramblings...., Soap Box on July 16, 2015 by iammaninthemiddle

I got a challenge for ya!

I will bleed on the flag to make sure the stripes stay red…  that’s a guaranty.

 

 

Peach Love and Chicken Grease…

 

 

YOU SUCK!

Posted in Uncategorized on July 19, 2014 by iammaninthemiddle

It’s been some time since I’ve written anything…  been to busy following my own advise!  LOL

I have this special someone…  that someone that holds my heart, soul and all of my emotions.

 

Scratch that shit…  Here is the deal….

PEOPLE SUCK!!!
BIG HAIRY MOOSE COCK!!!

I’m tired…  drunk…  and just fed up.

Have a wonderful night.

Peach Love and Chicken Grease…

MIM

Do we really get…

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings.... on September 26, 2011 by iammaninthemiddle

Do we really get what we want in life?

I was watching a movie on this well deserved off afternoon and it made me start to think… as with most of the movies out there, are the outcomes just as fictional? Where do they get that everyone lives happily ever after? I can’t help from my own life experiences that no one lives happily ever after… They may be “content” but are they really “Truly Happy”?

Some people may think that this is directed at or derived from them…  it’s not. Sorry… it’s derived from my own thoughts and feelings about my life in general, but may have some influence from them.

When I look around at people who I know, I try to observe what there lives are about…  there interactions with each other… for the lack of a better way to say it, a relationship status. I see many people who are content… but very few that are happy. I know this sounds very broad… but it is from observing, asking questions and my own formulations. Now you say that my own thought process may be flawed…  maybe…  maybe not.

I have made choices and decisions in my life that I thought were for the better of everyone around me…  come to think of it I have made choices and decisions like that almost all of my life. Anything to avoid confrontation or anything that would get anyone mad at me…  such as my family or friends. Along that path I used the majority rule… sacrificing a few individuals along the way for the greater good. Christ I sound like the military… acceptable casualties.

I always “settled” for complacency or what worked at the time.  No more I said!!! I changed my ways and started putting “ME” in front. I went all in, upped that pot on every hand. I won some and lost some.  But guess what…  still that same. I still don’t have what I want or where I want to be and have come to the conclusion that I never will.  It’s no fun winning if you’re the only one betting.  So I schlep on with my life.

So do not listen to anyone else…  your are your best judge of you…  and don’t be afraid to put half the loot in the pot…  next card could be that ace…

I really shouldn’t write when I’m drinking “HIM”…  He makes some sketchier decisions for me sometimes…  lol

Peace, love and chicken grease…

The Gamble…

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings...., Soap Box with tags , , , , , on June 10, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Trusting anything…  your family, your instincts, the guy on the ten o’clock news… it’s all a gamble… with plenty of promises and no guarantees… causing almost everyone to take the safe bet…

But I’m finding the older I get, no matter how often I fall on my face, that folding is for losers, that winners take hits…

call it going all in, rolling the dice… screw hedging your bets…

Bluff, raise, call, stand…  again and again… and again…

See you at the tables of life… dare to make the bets that matter… that make you who you are… not what they want you to be…

Peace, love and chicken grease…

Lunch With Gordon…

Posted in Ramblings.... with tags , , , , , on May 19, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Well…  today I had lunch with a friend that I have not seen in almost 5 years… A person that I have great respect and admiration for. He is a philosopher, song writer, performer, dad and professor.  What I call one of my true friends…

It was kind of neat when we started out down town…  people recognize him immediately…  sometimes it makes it tough to enjoy a meal…  LOL   So we decided on Rittenhouse Square and the luck of the draw… We ended up at Alma de Cuba. Lunch and the conversation were out standing… and so was the wine.

We talked about everything and anything… did a lot of catching up. He even said he may write a song of “my” latest experiences… I would be faltered. He would have to change the names though…  LOL  He is so fond of the saying to me, “history will teach you nothing brother!” And I laugh every time he says it…  because he’s right… and I say back, “you can’t change who you are anymore then you can change history”.  We talk more and laugh even more…

It’s been way to long and I can’t wait until the next visit, on either side of the pond, to do it again.

Peace and good luck brother on your new project and tour…

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease

We Love What We Love

Posted in Ramblings.... with tags , , on May 8, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

We love what we Love…

For some people it’s a first grade crush, for others it’s a big wheel, the New York Metz or the wrong girl. For some of us it’s something unreachable… something we’ve maybe never had before. And we know that even if we reach it… even if we pull it close and make it ours… it wont last… it can’t.

But we keep on… because it doesn’t matter if it’s a big wheel, the New York Metz or the wrong girl… it doesn’t matter what we reach for… what matters is the reaching. Some of us will reach for the rest of our lives…

Hope you all get what your reaching for…  and it lasts…

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease

Is it really being human?

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings.... with tags , , , , , , on May 4, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Have you ever had to wrestle with your emotions? Keep them in check? Hide them from the world and everyone around you?

I have been doing just this for over 8 months now and it’s driving me absolutely insane… it’s effecting my health, career, personal relationships and many other areas or my life…  I can’t sleep or eat… can’t keep a simple thought…

I wish I could blame somebody for how I feel…  but I can’t.  It’s my own fault…

One person looks at me and says you’re in love…  the next says your depressed…  the next… it goes on.

In the last 14 months I have lost four of my closest and dearest friends… One just left and the other three died… and I have no one to talk to about it… literally no one… I guess that reflects what a great person I am…

Oh well…  enough crying for this year…  As usual I will suck it up and I will be fine as it likes to be said…  LOL

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease

A different point of view?

Posted in Ramblings...., Soap Box with tags , , , , on May 4, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

What can I say? It’s uncle Ted on the Second Amendment… Continue reading

COURAGE

Posted in Pissed Off, Soap Box with tags , , , , on May 2, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

You’re a 19-year-old kid.

You’re critically wounded and dying in the  jungle somewhere in the Central Highlands  of Viet Nam.

It’s November 11, 1967.  LZ (landing zone) X-ray.
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A warning from a Naval Aviator

Posted in 1, Pissed Off, Ramblings...., Soap Box with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on April 10, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

What have I been saying all along???  (to those who know me)  Wake up folks…  we are in for a civil war of epic proportions…  Read On Dummy!!!!!

Pass it, or ignore it and go back to voting for somebody else’s money to pay your way to health and happiness.

This letter is from Naval Aviator, Commander Jerry Wilson.
Please take time to read what this man has to say………………
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Has anything changed?

Posted in 1 on March 30, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

This isn’t new…  but interesting none the less…
What has been done since? Did it just fade away? Did anything come of the investigations? Has anything changed?

Everyone but a few are mumbling and grumbling about our current leader and his circus…  but what is anyone doing to make changes? Why are we letting him do what ever he wants all the while wiping his feet on the constitution and laws of this great country?

I wonder how long it will be untill I’m on some list?  LOL   

I will also say this was sent to me and is not my original work, but I did investigate the sources and documentation provided…  although I agree with most of the subject matter, I am not responsible for it…  and before the Obamination Lovers start chiming in…  show me different… back it up with proof…  in black and white that its different or not true…  or shut the  fü©k up and go away… period.

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease…

 

Chrysler’s Railroad 

This could be a scandal of epic proportions and one that makes Nixon’s Watergate or  Clinton’s Monica Lewinsky affair pale by comparison. Why was there neither rhyme nor reason as to which dealerships of the Chrysler Corporation were to be closed?

Roll the clock back to the weeks just before Chrysler declared bankruptcy. Chrysler, like GM, was in dire financial straits and federal government “graciously” offered to “buy the company” and keep them out of bankruptcy and “save jobs.”

Chrysler was, in the words of Obama and his administration,

Too big to fail,” same story with GM.

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How Long Do We Have?

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings...., Soap Box with tags , , , , on March 22, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Being a history buff and always researching this and that, I have always heard about this democracy countdown. It is interesting to see it in print. God help us, not that we deserve it. It goes to reinforce that history will repeat itself… maybe not in my lifetime or even my children’s, but… Those who refuse to learn from History are doomed to repeat it…  Read up on past civilizations and great empires alike… what was the reason for their fall and demise? Greed and dependency… period.

If you find this interesting… please copy and pass it on…


How Long Do We Have?

About the time our original thirteen states adopted their new Constitution in 1787, (not that he was for it in any fashion) Alexander Tyler, a Scottish history professor at the University of Edinburgh, had this to say about the fall of the Athenian Republic some 2,000 years earlier:

‘A democracy is always temporary in nature; it simply cannot exist as a permanent form of   government.’

‘A democracy will continue to exist up until the time that voters discover they can vote themselves generous gifts from the public treasury.’

From that moment on, the majority always vote for the candidates who promise the most benefits from the public treasury, with the result that every democracy will finally collapse due to loose fiscal policy, which is always followed by a dictatorship.’

‘The average age of the world’s greatest civilizations from the beginning of history, has been about 200 years’

‘During those 200 years, those nations always progressed through the following sequence:

  1. from bondage to spiritual faith;
  2. from spiritual faith to great courage;
  3. from courage to liberty;
  4. from liberty to abundance;
  5. from abundance to complacency;
  6. from complacency to apathy;
  7. from apathy to dependence;
  8. from dependence back into bondage’

Professor Joseph Olson of Hemline University School of Law, St. Paul, Minnesota, points out some interesting facts concerning the 2000 Presidential election:

Number of States won by:  Democrats: 19 Republicans: 29

Square miles of land won by:  Democrats: 580,000 Republicans: 2,427,000

Population of counties won by:  Democrats: 127 million Republicans: 143   million

Murder rate per 100,000 residents in counties won by:  Democrats: 13.2 Republicans:   2.1

Professor Olson adds: ‘In aggregate, the map of the territory Republican won was mostly the land owned by the taxpaying citizens of this great country. Democrat territory mostly encompassed those citizens living in government-owned tenements and living off various forms of government welfare….’ Olson believes the United States is now somewhere between the ‘complacency   and apathy’ phase of Professor Tyler’s definition of democracy, with some   forty percent of the nation’s population already having reached the ‘governmental dependency’ phase.

If   Congress grants amnesty and citizenship to twenty million criminal invaders called illegal’s and they vote, then we can say goodbye to the USA in fewer than five years. (next after health care and taking our ability to defend ourselves away)

If you are in favor of this, then by all means, keep doing what you do… nothing. If you are not, then pass this along   to help everyone realize just how much is at stake, knowing that apathy is the greatest danger to our freedom.

WE LIVE IN THE LAND OF THE FREE, ONLY BECAUSE  OF THE BRAVE…  PERIOD!

Second Amendment At Risk!?!?!?!?

Posted in Pissed Off, Ramblings.... with tags , , , on March 6, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

 Please check the listings for your state and take action…

And for those searching for pro-gunners to add to a list…   PISS OFF!!!!!! You are some of, if not the most, unpatriotic people that have ever walked on American soil…  Go visit with the criminals that you enable and encourage and pray when they get out that your family is safe from the likes of them…  really…  open your narrow little mind  and think about it.

have a nice day…

NRA-ILA GRASSROOTS ALERT
Vol. 17, No. 9      03/5/10

U.S. Supreme Court Hears Chicago Gun Ban Case

Click here to vote in this week’s poll.

On Tuesday, March 2, the U.S. Supreme Court heard oral arguments in the case of McDonald v. City of Chicago.  The case may well decide the scope and nature of gun laws in the United States for decades to come.  The final decision will be handed down in a few months, most likely in June. 

As we’ve reported in past alerts and in NRA magazines, McDonald is one of two challenges to the Chicago handgun ban that were filed immediately after gun owners’ landmark 2008 victory in District of Columbia v. Heller.  After the Seventh Circuit U.S. Court of Appeals ruled-wrongly-that 19th century cases denied any right to Second Amendment protection against state and local laws, both McDonald and the companion case, NRA v. City of Chicago, were appealed.

The Court agreed to hear the McDonald case, but since that decision would affect the NRA case equally, the NRA was also a party to the McDonald case, and the Court granted us a share of the oral argument time. 

Brady’s Push On Starbucks Continues:  As we reported in February, the Brady Campaign has been plumbing the depths of desperation lately.  In an attempt at maintaining its relevance, the beleaguered group has attacked Starbucks for allowing the lawful carry of firearms in its stores as provided for by state law.

As we’ve pointed out, the Brady Campaign has been quick to fabricate a “right” to feel free from fear, while angrily scoffing at the right to self-protection.  To that end, last month the group encouraged its minions to sign a petition demanding that Starbucks establish a gun policy more restrictive than state law.  “I demand that Starbucks stand up for the safety of its customers and prohibit guns in your [sic] retail establishments,” the petition read. 

Volunteers Needed For 2010 NRA Annual Meetings In Charlotte:  The 2010 NRA Annual Meetings & Exhibits will be an exciting weekend, as thousands of NRA members will come together May 14-16, 2010, in Charlotte, NC.  You can contribute to the success of our meeting by participating as an Annual Meeting Volunteer.

Get Your Copy of Stephen Halbrook’s Freedmen, the Fourteenth Amendment, and the Right to Bear Arms, 1866-1876:  Does the Second Amendment apply to the states?  The Supreme Court will soon decide that critical question.  As that historic day approaches, there’s no better time for all Americans to learn more about this issue.

Join The NRA Online Advisory Panel:  Last November, the NRA introduced a new service and community for our members, the NRA Online Advisory Panel. Inside this community, NRA members can vote and comment on Second Amendment issues, see how they compare to Congress, and track key legislation.  The panel now has more than 10,000 members.  The opinions and feedback of the Online Advisory Panel are helping to guide the strategy and agenda of the NRA heading into a critical political cycle.  If you’re not already a member of this growing community, you don’t know what you’re missing.  We hope you will take a moment to join today by clicking HERE.  

Second Amendment March On Washington Scheduled For April:  There will be a Second Amendment March in Washington, D.C., on April 19, 2010, from 10:00 a.m. to 4:00 p.m.  Attendees will gather on the northeast corner of the Washington Monument grounds at 10:00 a.m., and the entire event will take place there (due to logistics, the event will be more of a “rally” than an actual march). 

STATE ROUNDUP  (Please note the only items listed below are those that have had recent action.  For other updates on state legislation, please go to the state legislation section at www.NRAILA.org, and check each week’s issue of the Grassroots Alert.)

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I’m Just Me…

Posted in Ramblings.... with tags , on March 4, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

…after several days and talking with everyone, I see that I haven’t lost my touch at being an assh@le… But I can only feel what I feel and think what I think… and with only one exception I won’t apologize for it…

after talking with a few people, one in particular, I need to apologize and actually say that I’m sorry… I broke my own golden rule of not taking what others say and going directly to the source for the answers… again I’m sorry to that person…  you know who you are…  love ya always Doll…

Other then that same crap different day…  dealing with people who want everything for nothing yesterday…  LOL

Have a great day and smile…  it really helps…

Peace and happiness…

Same sh!t different day…

Posted in Daily Grind with tags on February 24, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

So…  for the fifth time in a row I get blown off for lunch…  makes you feel real good to know that you mean that much to someone who they can’t even call to let you know… No call, nothing… I understand that life gets in the way… 

I watch over three different businesses, one of which is in another country, with a plethora of employees and clients attached to each… two children… and everything else in my personal life…  I might forget something small like pickup milk or get stamps, but never a commitment that I made to someone that I really care about…   Guess I expect to much of people.

I know I said it before, but…  I am tired of rearranging my schedule so people can blow me off… intentional or not… the result is that same…

Oh well…

Arrivederci

A song for the ones I love so much…

Posted in Pissed Off with tags on February 24, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Just a little music for the people below…
Not really how I feel, but found it fitting anyway…

LMFAO

I am salty as hell!!!!!!!

Posted in Pissed Off with tags , on February 21, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

It’s a real shame that my first post has to be this one… but I have a feeling that it will get things in my life out-of-the-way so I can write what I wanted in this space… clean the slate so to speak… As some of you may have noticed, I am just a bit salty… correction… I am salty as hell!!!!!!!

Over the last couple of months I have been very quiet with information and things that have been said to me. I am quiet no more…

“Sean will be fine” – I don’t really know whether to take that one as a compliment or an insult… I’ve heard that allot recently, from a couple of circles that don’t even mingle or cross. I’ll just leave that one alone for now, with more thought put into it over the next couple of weeks…

Recently I had some life altering events and news… I know some people don’t know how to deal with talking to me about some of these things… that’s fine and expected. Yet others look at it with humor… glad I can entertain you in some way with my pain and angst… yet others have all of the answers… tell me Dr…. Where did you get your PhD.?!?! Your life is so f#@cked up, how are you going to help straighten out mine?!?!?! and quit drinking for Christs sake!!! 

I think of people all of the time… While traveling back in October I picked up some great goodies for someone… I thought they were perfect and match them to a “T”… even had one specially made… come to find out that the items were so perfect and they loved them so much that they keep them on the microwave oven in th kitchen… just where I keep my expensive and prized possessions from someone so special… nice to see that it meant that much to you… LMFAO…

Recently I even had a couple who know me for about 10 minutes worth of time start a string of lies and statements that have lasted over six months… The biggest shocker was that, for a fact, I do cocaine!!! Really? When did I start that? Where did you see me do that? How would you know who I supposedly buy it from… Nice circle of friends you must travel in… How do I get around the random federal piss test about every other week? I even offered to buy a Fat Hummy for $5 from her… LMFAO. Is your life that boring or bad that you have to spread lies about me, even to your boyfriend? Pathetic at best…

I let my feeling be known to someone… through the unwanted and unneeded help, all though with good-natured intent…  I think,  of another friend the situation spiraled so out of control, to the point of no return, that this person will not even acknowledge my existence… very heart breaking… thanks, but no thanks. I can f@#ck things up on my own just fine without any help from the outside… and besides… who knows what I do and say better than me? (Evidently I must be wrong though… LMFAO) …how is your relationship doing these days? 

I could go on for days, but I will leave only one more… “You mean the world to me…” “I will always have that special love for you…” “I still love you like you have no idea…” Outside person, “what’s the deal with him”… the answer, “we had a thing once”… Nice to know I was a thing or not even special enough for even a little better answer… puts a lot of recent things in perspective now…  Not LMFAO…

For so many years I have worked very hard to remove the drama from my life and move forward accomplishing many great things… it has been very nice without it… extremely nice!

I will no longer make myself available to anyone but my true friends. The people who are there when I really need them… not an excuse of why they can’t or when it’s convenient for them. As the saying goes, “A friend will help you move… but a true friend will help you move the bodies” I love that… A stupid example is pictures on facebook…  posted many with my “friends” in the picture or of them…  havn’t seen one on anyones site with mee in it…  Oh, that right…  my sisters page, of me drunk…  wonderfull…

 So… If you call and I don’t answer… if you text and I don’t reply… if you email and it comes back bounced… if you see me somewhere and I walk the other direction… you now know why… I AM DONE!

Everyone else take a number and break out your wallets… your going to have to pay, just like Joe Bunyak on the corner…

I refuse to participate in anymore SECRET SQUIRREL bull shit and games… I had the balls to standup, make my claim and move on it to make my life better… if you’re afraid, go buy a blanky or teddy bear and leave me alone… If its complicated or tricky keep it to your self untill you figure it out… Don’t waste my time… I’m not interested…

Have a nice fricken day…