SOOOOOOO…….

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings.... on October 9, 2015 by iammaninthemiddle

I find out this week that the person I am absolutely smitten with (and have been for a while if you read this blog at all) has been keeping the same secret that I have.  I will not reveal the secret, but its very interesting to say the least.

Oh quit your bitchen, its our secret and its a secret…  right?!?!?!

I needed to get rid of some baggage from the past and went walk about…  after feeling that it wasn’t going to work.  I still feel that way to an extent. But I have hope now as the cat is out of the bag so to speak. I can’t read very well whether or not this will have a bearing on anything…  I can hope i guess.

On the flip side its mitigating and serious circumstances that have brought us (somewhat) back together in a friendly way. This believe it or not is more important then the secret.  That’s just icing on the cake. I wish that different events brought us back to speaking, but I will take it and hopefully help deal with these issues.

Ok…

As usual when I write here, I have been drinking. Something I haven’t done in a long while. Feeling quite numb at the moment, but good. I wish she were here so I could just hold her. I always loved that.

 

Enough mushy shit.

 

I’m out with the boys, to get my drink on.  A few more Car Bombs on top of a few pints and I’m good…  HA HA!

 

Peace love and chicken grease!

MIM

 

 

Now were talking!!!

Posted in Pissed Off, Ramblings...., Soap Box on July 16, 2015 by iammaninthemiddle

I got a challenge for ya!

I will bleed on the flag to make sure the stripes stay red…  that’s a guaranty.

 

 

Peach Love and Chicken Grease…

 

 

YOU SUCK!

Posted in Uncategorized on July 19, 2014 by iammaninthemiddle

It’s been some time since I’ve written anything…  been to busy following my own advise!  LOL

I have this special someone…  that someone that holds my heart, soul and all of my emotions.

 

Scratch that shit…  Here is the deal….

PEOPLE SUCK!!!
BIG HAIRY MOOSE COCK!!!

I’m tired…  drunk…  and just fed up.

Have a wonderful night.

Peach Love and Chicken Grease…

MIM

Do we really get…

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings.... on September 26, 2011 by iammaninthemiddle

Do we really get what we want in life?

I was watching a movie on this well deserved off afternoon and it made me start to think… as with most of the movies out there, are the outcomes just as fictional? Where do they get that everyone lives happily ever after? I can’t help from my own life experiences that no one lives happily ever after… They may be “content” but are they really “Truly Happy”?

Some people may think that this is directed at or derived from them…  it’s not. Sorry… it’s derived from my own thoughts and feelings about my life in general, but may have some influence from them.

When I look around at people who I know, I try to observe what there lives are about…  there interactions with each other… for the lack of a better way to say it, a relationship status. I see many people who are content… but very few that are happy. I know this sounds very broad… but it is from observing, asking questions and my own formulations. Now you say that my own thought process may be flawed…  maybe…  maybe not.

I have made choices and decisions in my life that I thought were for the better of everyone around me…  come to think of it I have made choices and decisions like that almost all of my life. Anything to avoid confrontation or anything that would get anyone mad at me…  such as my family or friends. Along that path I used the majority rule… sacrificing a few individuals along the way for the greater good. Christ I sound like the military… acceptable casualties.

I always “settled” for complacency or what worked at the time.  No more I said!!! I changed my ways and started putting “ME” in front. I went all in, upped that pot on every hand. I won some and lost some.  But guess what…  still that same. I still don’t have what I want or where I want to be and have come to the conclusion that I never will.  It’s no fun winning if you’re the only one betting.  So I schlep on with my life.

So do not listen to anyone else…  your are your best judge of you…  and don’t be afraid to put half the loot in the pot…  next card could be that ace…

I really shouldn’t write when I’m drinking “HIM”…  He makes some sketchier decisions for me sometimes…  lol

Peace, love and chicken grease…

The Gamble…

Posted in Daily Grind, Ramblings...., Soap Box with tags , , , , , on June 10, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Trusting anything…  your family, your instincts, the guy on the ten o’clock news… it’s all a gamble… with plenty of promises and no guarantees… causing almost everyone to take the safe bet…

But I’m finding the older I get, no matter how often I fall on my face, that folding is for losers, that winners take hits…

call it going all in, rolling the dice… screw hedging your bets…

Bluff, raise, call, stand…  again and again… and again…

See you at the tables of life… dare to make the bets that matter… that make you who you are… not what they want you to be…

Peace, love and chicken grease…

Lunch With Gordon…

Posted in Ramblings.... with tags , , , , , on May 19, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

Well…  today I had lunch with a friend that I have not seen in almost 5 years… A person that I have great respect and admiration for. He is a philosopher, song writer, performer, dad and professor.  What I call one of my true friends…

It was kind of neat when we started out down town…  people recognize him immediately…  sometimes it makes it tough to enjoy a meal…  LOL   So we decided on Rittenhouse Square and the luck of the draw… We ended up at Alma de Cuba. Lunch and the conversation were out standing… and so was the wine.

We talked about everything and anything… did a lot of catching up. He even said he may write a song of “my” latest experiences… I would be faltered. He would have to change the names though…  LOL  He is so fond of the saying to me, “history will teach you nothing brother!” And I laugh every time he says it…  because he’s right… and I say back, “you can’t change who you are anymore then you can change history”.  We talk more and laugh even more…

It’s been way to long and I can’t wait until the next visit, on either side of the pond, to do it again.

Peace and good luck brother on your new project and tour…

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease

We Love What We Love

Posted in Ramblings.... with tags , , on May 8, 2010 by iammaninthemiddle

We love what we Love…

For some people it’s a first grade crush, for others it’s a big wheel, the New York Metz or the wrong girl. For some of us it’s something unreachable… something we’ve maybe never had before. And we know that even if we reach it… even if we pull it close and make it ours… it wont last… it can’t.

But we keep on… because it doesn’t matter if it’s a big wheel, the New York Metz or the wrong girl… it doesn’t matter what we reach for… what matters is the reaching. Some of us will reach for the rest of our lives…

Hope you all get what your reaching for…  and it lasts…

Peace, Love and Chicken Grease